loneliness :'(

awak ,I MISS YOU :'(

saya tak tipu .saya dah lame tak jumpe awak, awak tau kann ?

okay .to readers : post kali ni just boud me and him . and kalau tak mau bace sudah .pergi blog lain .

since that day ,aku makin jauh dgn dia .okay , mggu ni dia ade camp polis at mrsm kulim ,n thats far enough . pastu lepas ni dia ada camp global leadership lagi ,starts selasa next week till that friday .that's terrible okay! then tambah malangnye lagi jumaat tu cuti balik pulak tu . so kalau nak di totalupkan almost 12 days aku takkan jumpe dia. tambahtambah lagi budak lelaki now at plkn ,mane ade prep malam nak jumpa jumpa.

aku tau lah ramai tak suka aku dengan dia . *bukan kau lah ,orang lain .

aku dah lama dengan dia weh .and it hurts me inside bila kena tinggal lama lama mcm tu .okay ,maybe korang takkan faham what's the meaning of that "kena tinggal" tu .takpelah .

malam ni ,saya tak pegang phone lagi dah .tapi saya boleh jugak nak call awak .banyak kali awak tau ? saya tau awak penat ,then kenape tadi awak cakap awak nk text saye malam ni. and worstly , im waiting for it. awak tak text saye pun .saye tunggu awak lama awak tau ? :'(

hmm , dah berhari hari i lost my spirits .dah bermalam malam aku rase macam nak pecah kepala. i think that i dont know myself anymore. my life wont be the same again without him .he's my everything .*not including my family . i love him okayy ! so much ! okay aku tau before ni ,we were on this relationship with wrong way .*to frens, you know what i mean rite? i dunno how to describe this feelings but i really really love him .

aku sayang dia. in my whole life.

pleaselah awak ,jangan buat saya macam ni lagi .im totally hurt .bila aku bukak balik all letters yang dia pernah bagi kat aku, my tears running down my cheeks. it's totally sad. and im crying while typing this. luckily banyak benda yang aku boleh simpan pasal dia . 

awak ,saya nak awak yang dulu balik .selalu ada masa untuk saya . selalu teman saya .selalu layang say .selalu bahagiakan saya bile saya sedih .ade banyak sweet moments kita selama ni ,i keep it in my diary of life forever . i love you .

saya harap awak akan tunggu saya . 

and saya pun akan tunggu awak jugak :')

i need you to be myself back . bila awak takde ,my life was ruined .because you're my half ,and i cant lose it ,or should i say ,YOU .